Ok, so… since I have this ranom wonderful blog, I shall use it for my random babblings and for venting. I have no idea how often I’ll be writing in here, but if I need to vent, I’ll probably come here… expect it. lol
and since I now have you expecting venting……… whoop.
So, lately, as in the past week or two, I’ve been struggling with something and it has seriously been tearing me apart. Am I a truly original person? One of my best friends was very honest with me when I asked her about this, which I am very thankful for. I guess, I have a tendency to be like others. I see something I like, I pick up on it… I think someone will like something I do, and I guess, I have a tendency to start doing that… this is a serious problem in my mind. I mean, its not like I’m gunna start doing drugs or something because I see someone doing that and think its cool or something… thats just stupid. But whatever happened to my identity? How long has this been going on? Have I ever truly had a true “identity” that I could call my own?
This all brings me to my next question:
How do I find who I truly am? I have a feeling this is going to be a really difficult journey for me… Not that I have like, anyone reading this blog at this point, but I request that anyone who is willing, to help me if they might know how… or just pray for me. That would be so increidbly helpful. I’m really hoping that in the time it takes for me to find myself, I dont get to a point where I look and feel all depressed and waht not… I’ve been known to get that way every once in a while. *sigh*
Well, thanks for reading if you got this far….
Wish me luck…
~Voiceless Expression
Struggles.
December 20, 2008 at 12:15 am (Uncategorized)
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Dana said,
December 20, 2008 at 4:49 pm
Yikes. Sounds like you’re having major troubles here…
To be completely honest, I think you don’t have too much to worry about. Everyone picks up on things that other people do; that’s just how life happens. And then there’s the fact that sometimes when I see something I think “that’s so Kalyn!” I’m not sure what you’re actually talking about in terms of examples, but I think that can apply to most things.
But even if you’re still seeing your life as unoriginal, I think what could help most is figuring out what *you* like, and what *you* like to do, and focus on that.
But again, don’t freak out about it – as far as I can see, you’re pretty dang yourself. I mean, no one has walls like you – you like the purple and the tilted mirrors because you like the effect. So hey, you’re already well on your way
Michael W. said,
December 20, 2008 at 11:13 pm
Hey! Your name is Kalyn, right? Well that’s something unique about you. Not very many people know a Kalyn, and those that do are very lucky indeed.
Kalyn, take a good look at yourself. Do you know anyone else who looks like you? How about someone who thinks like you? Who talks like you? Neither do I. You’re so *you* that you’re … just… you.
See, God made you like that. He gives you what you need to conquer anything you face. Identity, individuality, love, friendship, self-loving, self-loathing, looks, relationships.
But all of these things– ALL of them– society sees as pressures now. And that, Kalyn, is truly saddening. Everyone wishes they were someone they aren’t. Everyone worries about their life when they aren’t the ones in control.
As one of my best friends said, “Life is not given to us so we will worry about messing it up.”
God loves you, Kalyn. That doesn’t ever stop.
I’ll pray for you, Kalyn. I’ll pray that you become the young woman that Jesus wants you to be.
jessi...the ninja XD said,
January 27, 2009 at 11:40 am
kalyn, my dear friend, i’ve tried to write this stupid comment like four times, i have so much to tell you, but i can’t get my thoughts in line to what i want to say. You ARE unique and original. YOu may pick things you like about one person, and copy it a bit, but that doesn’t mean you aren’t unique. Seriously, who do you know is nothing like anyone else, and you can’t look completly different thn everybody unless you have an outrageous amount of money…You are perfectly you! And i love that about you, you aren’t afraid to be you! Don’t forget that God gave you your identity when he made you, He gives us the ability to change these a little, but he makes us all different in some way, and you are the best you you can be. Now i sound stupid…but i just don’t know…..anywho…i truely mean all of it no matter how cliche it sounds, I love you my dear.
Love,
jessi