Voiceless Expression

Ignorance. Bliss. That little saying that everyone hears somewhat often here and hey, guess what. its true.
Think about it. What age group contains the happiest people you’ll ever know? Those over 60 who start to know more than any person needs to know? or those cute, innocent little 5 year olds? I think the little 5 year olds. I mean, think about it. Don’t you always see them smiling and happy as can be? Well, unless they’re crying about how they can’t have the new toy they picked up and momy told them they couldn’t have.  But thats veering from my point.  Those cute little 5 year olds, are just beginning to learn.  Those little 5 year olds have no (or very limited) knowledge of the real world.  Money, drugs, sex, death, why momy and dady just got in a fight and are in seperate rooms. Any of it. They might, have an inkling of an idea of whats going on. They don’t truly grasp the concept though.  Its all greek to them, when it all comes down to it.  If they hear about that murder that is being shown on the news, they ask about it. They don’t dwell on it for long.  They don’t fully grasp why this happens.  Their mind soon moves to focus on something else. Something nicer. Something happier. Something better. 
Ignorance. possibly selfish. Ignorance. true bliss.
I don’t want to know about all the horrid murder and sin going on in this world that we live in. It sucks, to say the least.  I want to be that innocent little 5 year old again, who doesn’t understand it all. But I want to be stuck there. Where my biggest problem would be little Jimmy over there stole my twinky.  I don’t want to see any of this anymore. I want to think boys have cooties. I don’t want to worry about the problems in life. I want to be sheltered from all this evil in the world again.  I don’t want to know any of it anymore. I don’t want to be so corrupt just from this knowledge.  I want ignorance. I want bliss. I want out of the real world and into my fantasy worlds once again.

.Ignorance.is.the.only.true.bliss.in.this.world.

Ok, so… since I have this ranom wonderful blog, I shall use it for my random babblings and for venting. I have no idea how often I’ll be writing in here, but if I need to vent, I’ll probably come here… expect it. lol
and since I now have you expecting venting……… whoop.
So, lately, as in the past week or two, I’ve been struggling with something and it has seriously been tearing me apart.  Am I a truly original person? One of my best friends was very honest with me when I asked her about this, which I am very thankful for.  I guess, I have a tendency to  be like others. I see something I like, I pick up on it… I think someone will like something I do, and I guess, I have a tendency to start doing that… this is a serious problem in my mind.  I mean, its not like I’m gunna start doing drugs or something because I see someone doing that and think its cool or something… thats just stupid.  But whatever happened to my identity? How long has this been going on? Have I ever truly had a true “identity” that I could call my own? 
This all brings me to my next question:
How do I find who I truly am? I have a feeling this is going to be a really difficult journey for me… Not that I have like, anyone reading this blog at this point, but I request that anyone who is willing, to help me if they might know how… or just pray for me. That would be so increidbly helpful.  I’m really hoping that in the time it takes for me to find myself, I dont get to a point where I look and feel all depressed and waht not… I’ve been known to get that way every once in a while. *sigh*
Well, thanks for reading if you got this far….
Wish me luck…
~Voiceless Expression

Alright, so, since I need sleep, this will be a quick post, but a post none the less.
So, I have a blog! I figured that I needed to take my random babblings from those huge IM convos elsewhere, hence this wonderful blog! lol
So, I shall use the right to rant and babbling about anything that comes with a blog. lol
Huzzah! XD